if i am happy

everyone always me asks the same question, the obligatory, "how are you?!" and lately i'm answering this question in the same way.

i'm really, really good! really. so so good.

god is so good and that is it, that is all. this joy, it is found in my mornings. my up before eight mornings because being up before eight is worth it if it means a breakfast date with jesus. i am poured into, and that is why i can pour out. i am surrounded: from friends and partners in the gospel and counselors and spoken words to written text to music to sermons to conversation and my hand on yours in prayer and memorizing Ephesians at my desk at work and hugs and late nights and worship with sweet catholics and blessings and open hands and bread and wine and answered prayer and so much winter sunshine and seeing growth and blessed, sweet jesus, never leaving my side. i stand under a waterfall--rich and wild and weighty and strong and all-compassing and this fills me full.
if i am happy, this is why.