Questions

Today in class I stumbled upon the "reminders list" function of the laptop and discovered a tab, quite accidentally, titled "Questions." Such is the joy of having my servant-hearted man give me his laptop when mine stopped working; I discover traces of him in surprising places in ways that capture my heart. This tab of questions was just that, a long list of questions he had written out...to ask me. The list went as far back as our earliest dates: things he wanted to follow up on that I had shared with him, things he wanted to pray for I had mentioned, and a vast number of thoughtful, probing conversation starters and questions. Designed just for me. Many of the entries were marked completed. I could remember the conversations where he posed this question or we had that conversation during those joyous and heartbreaking days of being apart, and my heart swelled as I savored the memories.

It still amazes me that he loves me the way he does. It amazes me more each day what an insanely humble, tender, patient, generous, gentle, wise, hopeful, grace-filled, behind-the-scenes, servant leader that he is. That he's God's gift to me. That he's the kind of man who writes dozens of questions to ask of the woman he loves, just to know her heart.

Throwback to 2015: one of those unforgettable nights he

 unleashed his intentional, pursuing love on me and reeled me all the way in.