right before finals

today is monday, december 10, 2012. it was a very typical monday- the last of them for the semester, but otherwise very ordinary.

i just got home from studying on sara's couch and i was thinking about how even though finals start in two days and half of campus is overwhelmed with anxiety, i feel totally blessed and content. the opportunity to commune today- so rich. in a normal day of school and class and studying, i saw and spent time with so many friends- adam, stevie, katrina, sara, craig, and owen. and each had a bit of peace and joy and kindness to pour into me and i feel richly blessed.

i am so happy. well, perhaps happy isn't it exactly- in fact, its almost two am and i'm really hungry, achy, and pretty tired. but yet i am at peace. the next week is hectic and includes five finals. but for maybe the first time ever, nothing about that overwhelms me or scares me. part of the that is the practical knowing that i've survived finals just fine so many times already---i know i can do it again. and part of it is just this sweet rest in christ that has effectively banished anxiety from my life. he is too good, too kind, too in control to let anything he doesn't want for me to touch my life.

so now i rest.

god is good, all of the time.