in this moment.

i'm really, really tired. my room is a mess and a lot of things in my life feel out of control-- 3 major papers and a test due in three days, no thanksmas presents, and hundred other stressors. i've been pretty good though, actually. the whole day feels like a moment-by-moment struggle to find peace and rest in god, even when that means curling up on a desk chair in the library, turning on a really good song, closing my eyes, and praying for a few minutes.

i must find a balance. i must nourish myself. i must keep on valuing what is really important, even when that is hard. and this week, this every night in the library until about 2am week, that balance has been tough. i want to get through, yet also pause and find joy in the intense productivity of this short time. i am creating a lot of work this week- all in all, about 35 pages of writing on top of everything else. and there, god can be glorified. so that's what i pray for. that he's in the middle of all this, because he has me here.

yeah. so he can do this through me. amen. 

friday, november 16, 2012

just back from the co thanksgiving dinner and rooftop visit with my best friends…blessed night.