member of the george washington class of 2014
and i am overwhelmed.
orientation is over, and oh wow. i have so incredibly much to be excited for; excited for the probably the greatest changes of my life. it feels real now. very real. i think i finally believe- believe in the deep parts of my soul that i WILL be going to DC for school in august. took me awhile to really believe it, to say the least.
so, orientation. 2 and a half days with 500 of my classmates. i don’t know how many of them i actually met, but it felt pretty close to 500. they were interesting, funny, smart, outgoing, and all very different. i loved the emphasis on accepting one another not just in spite of our differences, but because of them. in a world where teenagers seem to believe everyone has to look alike and be alike to be cool, it was wonderful to be told be PROUD of what makes you who you are- don’t hide it. it’s all going to be so entirely unlike anything i’ve ever grown up around, and I already love it. i am thrilled to have an incredible roommate (thank you Jesus!) and so excited to study things that fascinate me and live in the heart of a beautiful city. all of this excitement- years and years leading up to it. Ahh.
so that’s the positive side.
to be honest, it’s not the side i was mostly seeing during orientation. it was intense and draining and it didn’t help that i was really sick the whole time. but what scares me the most is realizing that things will never be the same at home. leaving my friends. good gosh. i am in the depths of the depths of despair over it. no one understands like they do. and they’re so amazing. you can’t just find people like them anywhere. they accept me just the way i am, and what if it takes a really long time to find new people who accept the very strange and slightly off-balance me for me? thats scurrry.
so all of these fears and insecurities and joys filling me up are a little confusing.
But theres no looking back and no going back. i’m a real-life member of the george washington student body.
here goes!
orientation is over, and oh wow. i have so incredibly much to be excited for; excited for the probably the greatest changes of my life. it feels real now. very real. i think i finally believe- believe in the deep parts of my soul that i WILL be going to DC for school in august. took me awhile to really believe it, to say the least.
so, orientation. 2 and a half days with 500 of my classmates. i don’t know how many of them i actually met, but it felt pretty close to 500. they were interesting, funny, smart, outgoing, and all very different. i loved the emphasis on accepting one another not just in spite of our differences, but because of them. in a world where teenagers seem to believe everyone has to look alike and be alike to be cool, it was wonderful to be told be PROUD of what makes you who you are- don’t hide it. it’s all going to be so entirely unlike anything i’ve ever grown up around, and I already love it. i am thrilled to have an incredible roommate (thank you Jesus!) and so excited to study things that fascinate me and live in the heart of a beautiful city. all of this excitement- years and years leading up to it. Ahh.
so that’s the positive side.
to be honest, it’s not the side i was mostly seeing during orientation. it was intense and draining and it didn’t help that i was really sick the whole time. but what scares me the most is realizing that things will never be the same at home. leaving my friends. good gosh. i am in the depths of the depths of despair over it. no one understands like they do. and they’re so amazing. you can’t just find people like them anywhere. they accept me just the way i am, and what if it takes a really long time to find new people who accept the very strange and slightly off-balance me for me? thats scurrry.
so all of these fears and insecurities and joys filling me up are a little confusing.
But theres no looking back and no going back. i’m a real-life member of the george washington student body.
here goes!
girl, the thought of someone not completely loving you is laughable. just sayin. love ya. <3
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